I'm scared shitless that they're going to put me to sleep and I'll never wake up, just gone. I've read on a few other sites how "difficult" this surgery is and that's why so few doctors perform it and that's made me think I won't survive it. I keep trying to tell myself that I "only" have high blood pressure and sleep apnea so even though I'm a fatty fat fat, I can survive this. I keep reminding myself that my surgeon's mortality rate is 0.1% and I'm gonna make it but I'm pretty terrified. Allllmost terrified enough to say forget it. lol