buffalobillsfan
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I was going to send this email privately to Diana but I thought I would share it with our virtual family. I’m a bit tired and finding it hard to put my feelings into words (I do not have Diana’s writing gift and I'm always overly wordy) so bear with me.
Dear Diana,
I could barely sleep last night thinking about the pain that Loki’s death brings you. I tried to think of anything to say that could bring any relief. There are no magic wands or words to make it all go away and I can’t imagine how devastated you are. I want to tell you how honored I am that I adopted Loki and Mimi to you. To then be able to visit you and see what an extraordinary life they had and how much you loved them made me so happy. That might have just been a visit for you but it is one of the rare moments that remind me why I do this difficult job. I could not have envisioned a better life for them and I mean that with all of my heart. Charles glowed when he talked about them and it was clear that your family adored them.
I know how distressed you were when Loki went missing and I know that not being able to find him was eating away at your soul. You went over and above what 99% of people do to find him. You left no stone unturned. Since I can’t bring him back all I can do is pray that you can be relieved of all anger, guilt, fear, should haves, would haves, if onlys, or thinking about how he died. When we lose loved ones tragically it’s hard to keep those voices silent. I hope you can find peace around this during your grieving and remember his life instead.
If you could see what I see on a daily basis...animals that spent their entire lives mistreated, neglected, abused, treated like an object, lacking medical care/grooming, you name it, I’ve seen it. I see people who can’t be bothered to look for their pets or who wait weeks to try and find them. People who look pissed off at their dog for ending up in the shelter. I try to tell them how lucky they are that their pet is alive and safe but they are more focused on the inconvenience and cost. There are times I have to call someone and tell them their pet is deceased. I have to prepare myself and hold back the tears. Many times I am more upset than the owners.
Loki had a better life in a few years that most animals have in their entire lifetime. He was a very, very lucky boy and he knows he was loved every one of those moments. I don’t know why such a horrible thing would happen to undeserving people like you and a beautiful cat like Loki. I don’t understand a lot of things. I read the story recently about the 7 siblings that died in a house fire in NY. Why? Why? Why Loki? Why them? I try to look for meanings or lessons and sometimes they are so hard to find. I know it doesn’t bring back Loki or make your pain easier to bear but sharing your story will help others. This morning instead of rushing out of the house I did an animal headcount before I left, made sure my curling iron wasn’t still on, reminding myself to be more present and not doing shopping lists in my head. It reminded me to hug and kiss my pet babies instead of doing the dishes. It also reminded me to find the one story that always helps me during hard times when there seems to be no answer to the “whys”.
Two Traveling Angels Story
Two traveling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guest room. Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it.
When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, "Things aren't always what they seem."
The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest.
When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field.
The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel, "How could you have let this happen? The first man had everything, yet you helped him. The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die."
"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied. "When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it."
"Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem."
With love and hugs,
Cathy
Dear Diana,
I could barely sleep last night thinking about the pain that Loki’s death brings you. I tried to think of anything to say that could bring any relief. There are no magic wands or words to make it all go away and I can’t imagine how devastated you are. I want to tell you how honored I am that I adopted Loki and Mimi to you. To then be able to visit you and see what an extraordinary life they had and how much you loved them made me so happy. That might have just been a visit for you but it is one of the rare moments that remind me why I do this difficult job. I could not have envisioned a better life for them and I mean that with all of my heart. Charles glowed when he talked about them and it was clear that your family adored them.
I know how distressed you were when Loki went missing and I know that not being able to find him was eating away at your soul. You went over and above what 99% of people do to find him. You left no stone unturned. Since I can’t bring him back all I can do is pray that you can be relieved of all anger, guilt, fear, should haves, would haves, if onlys, or thinking about how he died. When we lose loved ones tragically it’s hard to keep those voices silent. I hope you can find peace around this during your grieving and remember his life instead.
If you could see what I see on a daily basis...animals that spent their entire lives mistreated, neglected, abused, treated like an object, lacking medical care/grooming, you name it, I’ve seen it. I see people who can’t be bothered to look for their pets or who wait weeks to try and find them. People who look pissed off at their dog for ending up in the shelter. I try to tell them how lucky they are that their pet is alive and safe but they are more focused on the inconvenience and cost. There are times I have to call someone and tell them their pet is deceased. I have to prepare myself and hold back the tears. Many times I am more upset than the owners.
Loki had a better life in a few years that most animals have in their entire lifetime. He was a very, very lucky boy and he knows he was loved every one of those moments. I don’t know why such a horrible thing would happen to undeserving people like you and a beautiful cat like Loki. I don’t understand a lot of things. I read the story recently about the 7 siblings that died in a house fire in NY. Why? Why? Why Loki? Why them? I try to look for meanings or lessons and sometimes they are so hard to find. I know it doesn’t bring back Loki or make your pain easier to bear but sharing your story will help others. This morning instead of rushing out of the house I did an animal headcount before I left, made sure my curling iron wasn’t still on, reminding myself to be more present and not doing shopping lists in my head. It reminded me to hug and kiss my pet babies instead of doing the dishes. It also reminded me to find the one story that always helps me during hard times when there seems to be no answer to the “whys”.
Two Traveling Angels Story
Two traveling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guest room. Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it.
When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, "Things aren't always what they seem."
The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest.
When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field.
The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel, "How could you have let this happen? The first man had everything, yet you helped him. The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die."
"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied. "When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it."
"Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem."
With love and hugs,
Cathy
