Jbandmmomma
becky
I appreciate all the thoughts so much. I've been thinking about this a lot since my last update and think I had a Lightbulb moment. I am, as of this morning, 89 pounds down from highest weight. That means I weigh less than I have since before my now 8-year old son was born. I believe that I am frustrated because the last time I was "here", I wore pants at least 3 plus sizes smaller than the ones I'm wearing today. Granted, the pair of jeans I'm wearing today are beyond baggy, but they still technically are wearable.
The cumulative effects of being SMO, 3 pregnancies and nurslings in a 5 year span, and 3 c-sections have changed the shape of me so that my prior size is not achieved yet. It is complete vanity and I am beyond grateful for the positive health changes I've realized, but I guess there was a buried part of my brain that wanted to *need* new pants by now.
And I know it will happen, I am trusting the process, but needed to record this for me to see later. A little naked psychological truth, and a reminder to myself to focus on the really important stuff.
The cumulative effects of being SMO, 3 pregnancies and nurslings in a 5 year span, and 3 c-sections have changed the shape of me so that my prior size is not achieved yet. It is complete vanity and I am beyond grateful for the positive health changes I've realized, but I guess there was a buried part of my brain that wanted to *need* new pants by now.
And I know it will happen, I am trusting the process, but needed to record this for me to see later. A little naked psychological truth, and a reminder to myself to focus on the really important stuff.
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