304lbs down so far!!! :)

[Clematis]

In what definition of "failure" is losing 380 pounds??? Geesh. Stop smacking yourself around. Your metabolism sucks. You didn't do anything to make it suck -- you were just born that way.

That apronectomy (when they get around to doing it) will drop your weight over night and you'll be within reach of your goal.

Patience. You got this, girl.

 

[Larra]

Failure?? Good grief, what would be your definition of success? You have done fantastically well. I hope the plastics will be in your near future, somehow.

 

[joyann1968]

Thanks! 380 lost so far and trying not to be sad about that even though Im still pretty dang large. But Im a lot smaller than I used to be!

 

[joyann1968]

Don't be so hard on yourself? 380lbs is a very big deal! Be proud of your self! I am very proud of myself. My HW 505 lbs, SW 411 lbs, CW 258 lbs, but right now I am struggling at a year and a half out and little to no restiction and it scares me so much. I don't want to gain this weight back. I am trying really hard to eat like I am suppose to, but there are days where I do go over on my carbs. I am can't exercise at all right now, bad knees and back, been getting injections for pain, another round of injections on the 18th in my back. It sucks! It would be nice to meet someone who is going what I am going through and see how they are handling it. Sorry to vent on your post. Congrats to you on your loss!

 

[Munchkin]

Once upon a time, I went to the hairdresser. I sat down in the chair and as a JOKE, I said, "Make me beautiful!" As if...I was likely every bit of 300lbs at the time. I knew there was no way in hell I was going to be even acceptable, much less beautiful. The hairdresser looked at the scissors and looked at me. "Honey", she said, "I hope you know these are scissors, not a magic wand!" Yep, that hurt!

Hope springs eternal and everyone wants to wake up and be a Disney Princess once in their life. You just get damn tired of never being good enough. We all had pictures in our heads of what we would look like post weight loss. And for many of us it's much worse than what we imagined. Then there are those whose mobility is actually decreased by hanging and flapping skin. You're still a princess underneath but no one else knows it. I wish there was a way to make life fair.

Keep on Roo! Just be better today than you were last month!

 

[DSRIGGS]

Once upon a time, I went to the hairdresser. I sat down in the chair and as a JOKE, I said, "Make me beautiful!" As if...I was likely every bit of 300lbs at the time. I knew there was no way in hell I was going to be even acceptable, much less beautiful. The hairdresser looked at the scissors and looked at me. "Honey", she said, "I hope you know these are scissors, not a magic wand!" Yep, that hurt!

Hope springs eternal and everyone wants to wake up and be a Disney Princess once in their life. You just get damn tired of never being good enough. We all had pictures in our heads of what we would look like post weight loss. And for many of us it's much worse than what we imagined. Then there are those whose mobility is actually decreased by hanging and flapping skin. You're still a princess underneath but no one else knows it. I wish there was a way to make life fair.

Keep on Roo! Just be better today than you were last month!

Munchkin I am so sorry that worthless sack of shit said that to you. You are a beautiful person ,I can tell that from just this board.

 

[DSRIGGS]

Roo Honey, you are beautiful in so many weighs. You make me laugh all the time and that is awesome. I know you bad battle mental demons which is tiring, and it is frustrating because who doesn't want that perfect body and freaking Ernie gone so you can eat. That being said, as the ladies have pointed out you are a rock star and are so inspirational to those of us here and to the FB group.

Chin up LIL Missy, you Rock and are going to get even better!

 

[DuodenalSwitchaRoo]

Thank you everyone for the encouragement. I AM successful on paper....but out in the real world, Im still fat. And not chubby fat, still obese, and 0.01 points from the death fatz. I struggle hard, very very hard with comparison and competition. I always preach 'don't compare your journey', but Im human and compare the hell out of my shit.

However, yesterday I felt kinda cute, and medium sized. I've become obsessed with checking out EVERYONE's body. Not out of hate or judgement of them, but judgement of myself, trying to figure out where I fit in. I think I've hit 'normal fat'.

But hey, I felt pretty yesterday First time in a long time. I look fantastically happy, but in reality I was laughing at how ridiculous I felt striking a pose in the middle of the day with god knows how many people watching lol. Life is pretty good though, just wish it was better (don't we ALL lol).

Sorry to those who have seen this pic. Im sure it's getting old lol

 

[southernlady]

LOOK at those collarbones! And your skinny neck!
But what impressed me the most was the fact that you are standing and not leaning on ANYTHING.

 

[Susan in Tennessee]

What a cute picture! And yes, my first thought was the collarbones!

 

[DSRIGGS]

Those pictures were very pretty. Naturally you picked the one where you were hamming it up, to post here.

Don't be so hard on yourself, but I understand fully what you are saying and hard it can be to practice what we preach about not comparing. You have to much spunk to give up so keep on keepin on (man that sounds like a 70's hippie)

Was your 2nd stage in 14 or was that the first stage?

 

[DuodenalSwitchaRoo]

LOOK at those collarbones! And your skinny neck!
But what impressed me the most was the fact that you are standing and not leaning on ANYTHING.

I know right?!?!?! I've come leaps and bounds!!!! I still have uneven legs and to stand straight I have to bend my right leg, but I can DO IT!!! And to go into town or a mall I still have to use my wheelchair, but I can do small distances without crutches, a walking stick or a walker...so it's all progress.

 

[DuodenalSwitchaRoo]

Those pictures were very pretty. Naturally you picked the one where you were hamming it up, to post here.

Don't be so hard on yourself, but I understand fully what you are saying and hard it can be to practice what we preach about not comparing. You have to much spunk to give up so keep on keepin on (man that sounds like a 70's hippie)

Was your 2nd stage in 14 or was that the first stage?

I'm not saying anything about the 70's lol, last time you helped me dig myself a hole lol.

VSG was Aug 2010, DS Feb 2014...so thats they WLS done for me I gotta find a way to get more off.....and I WILL lol. Im stubborn lol

 

[Larra]

Love the collarbones! You have come so far and look fantastic.

 

[DuodenalSwitchaRoo]

And the funny thing about this pic is I look deliriously happy, but in reality I am laughing about how silly I feel striking a pose for the neighbourhood lol, but it was a good day and just seeing how good I look has boosted my morale quite a bit