9 months- the good, the bad, the ugly

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    brooklyngirl

    brooklyngirl Yankee gone south

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    Hey all!
    So yesterday was my 9 month surgiversary! Someone, a while back, had written a post on PB about the good, the bad and the ugly. I found it super helpful back then so I thought I'd share my version, only in reverse...

    The ugly
    • I am a saggy mess. My upper arms, stomach, boobs and thighs are atrocious. So far, my ass hasn't gone south, but I won't be surprised if that happens too. It was 91 degrees out today and I wore a sleeveless dress. The 8 year old that I take care of asked me what's wrong with my arms o_O
    • Lots of things that are WLS staples don't agree with me. Splenda, whey protein shakes and yogurt give me horrid stomach pains and send me running for the bathroom. Lots of things that are sugar free, high protein, inexpensive and/or easy to eat on the go have one or more of those ingredients. I've wasted lots of money before I figured it out, and I spend more money on protein supplements now.
    • I think I might have an anal fissure and it is NOT fun.
    The bad
    • There are times (especially while I'm PMSing) where I still feel the carb monster take over. Sometimes I can fight it off, other times, like last week, I cave. I think my compulsive food issues will be an ongoing struggle for the rest of my life, but I am working on it in therapy.
    • Sometimes I think I look great, other times, I don't see the difference that others can see. It's a real mind fuck.
    • I lost about 3/4 of my hair, but I do have "sproutlings" that are 1-2 inches long.
    • My last set of labs wasn't very good. My iron, protein and some vitamins were all low. I've been working since then to get things back into range, but it's not very fun to force feed protein when I'm not hungry or vitamins when I sometimes gag on them.
    The good
    • I have lost a total of 194 pounds from my highest weight before the pre op diet. That's the size of a chubby chic, or an average man.
    • I can eat foods that were forbidden for my whole life- butter, bacon, cheese, nuts, full fat salad dressings, fatty cuts of delicious meat!
    • I can shop in lots of regular stores now. At my biggest, I couldn't even shop in Lane Bryant or Avenue anymore, last week I bought a maxi dress in the junior section in Target :)
    • I can walk without feeling like I'm going to collapse. This means I can do things I couldn't do before that most people take for granted, like going grocery shopping, walking around the mall with my girlfriends, going to the park, going to outdoor events, ENJOYING LIFE!
    • I do no have debilitating back pain from compressed discs any longer.
    • My knee pain has improved.
    • I don't feel like everyone is staring at me for being the biggest person in the room anymore.
    • I'm flying to California this week, and of all the things I'm stressing over, being humiliated by not fitting into the seat and by squashing the person next to me are not on that list!
    • My severe sleep apnea is almost gone, if not gone completely (I haven't had another sleep study done to confirm, but my husband says I rarely snore these days).
    • My diabetes has resolved. My A1c is at the low end of the normal range.
    That's my story up until now, folks. It hasn't been easy, but the trade-offs have been way worth it. Thanks to all of you, both vets and newbies, who have been supportive along my journey, xoxo :D
     
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    Terri

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    Thank you for sharing this. I think you are doing fantastic!
     
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    brooklyngirl

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    southernlady

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    Yeah!!!!

    Sounds like you need another sleep study to confirm that your apnea is resolved.
     
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    brooklyngirl

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    Yes, I know that's the right answer, but that night was complete and utter TORTURE and I reallllllly don't want to do it again! I had 3 panic attacks over the course of 7 hours, I've never come close to anything like that, ever :confused:
     
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    newanatomy

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    Some of this is truly fantastic, you should be so proud of all that you have accomplished.

    I am sorry about the bad stuff. I hope you find better answers!

    The fissure is very concerning, how about getting that checked. Get help before it gets totally out of hand.

    You are so great. Thanks for sharing your journey, I love to know.
     
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    brooklyngirl

    brooklyngirl Yankee gone south

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    Thanks NA :)
    And of course, you're right, I will get myself checked out eventually. I'm just being a total chicken shit!
     
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    southernlady

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    Lauren, please have the fissure looked at. I know you don't want to...neither did dh when he had his back LONG before WLS. Then it blew and he had no option...I took him to the ER.
     
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    brooklyngirl

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    Ok, ok, point taken. Do I go to the PCP first or directly to a colorectal person? Ugh, how freekin embarrassing!
     
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    southernlady

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    I PROMISE you, Dr. W has seen/heard WORSE! You might want to call his office and ask for a recommendation to a gastroenterologist. And you may have to see Dr. W first to get a referral. We avoided the referral but it was NOT the way to do it.
     
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    newanatomy

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    Start with your PCP. Sorry about the embarrassing part! I fear this kind of stuff too! I just hope I never get one. If I do, you can kick me in the fissure to make me go to the doctor. :X3:
     
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    brooklyngirl

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    Lol thanks ladies, what would I do without you?!?! :D
     
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    JackieOnLine

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    crap, how's I miss this? (keep forgetting to hit "new posts" is how)

    GOOD for you, that is an enormous change and the resolution of diabetes alone is worth all the stuff on the "bad" list. what a great post, thank you for sharing it with us.

    also sorry to hear about the fissure but get it taken care of, don't wait.

    *applause* all this in only 9 months, fanfreakintastic!!!
     
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    Taterweight

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    Congrats on all your successes! You are inspiring and I always love reading your posts. :)
     
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    brooklyngirl

    brooklyngirl Yankee gone south

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    Thanks ladies, it really is phenomenal to have this group of people who have either gone through or are going through similar journeys. I can talk to family and friends, but they just don't *get* it. I'm very grateful for you guys :D:D:D
     
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