Here I am at age 60 and going to be a grandmother in 6 months. A very obese grandmother. I have waited my entire adult life waiting for this moment even tho' I thought it would have happened years ago when I was younger and thinner. Well it isn't happening that way.
I had a Vertical Sleeve Gastroplasty (VSG) in 1994 at the starting weight of about 260 pounds. I eventually lost 130 pounds, felt fantastic and was in my early 40's. I rewarded myself with a new motorcycle, a new wardrobe and my son had me escort him during one of his high school events blushing at all the whistling from his friends. They watched me lose this weight and were my biggest cheerleaders.
So here I am 20 years later weighing more now that ever and I'm feeling miserable. What happened? I started dating and what comes with that is restaurant dinners. Did I get over confident and start eating little things knowing I could lose it? You can move food around on your plate to make it look like you are eating but one day people will notice so you start forcing yourself to eat more with trips to the restroom to expel that last bite. So I started practicing at home eating just a few extra bites. I did find that eating mashed potatoes with gravy was easy, Little Debbie's filled me up, and frosting out of a can, if eaten slowly, did not make me run to the restroom. Bottom line is, I learned how to cheat with the sleeve and it didn't hurt. Good thing I saved some of my larger jeans because very quickly I started wearing them.
At 280 pounds plus, depending on how much fluid I am retaining, I am MISERABLE. I have quit seeing my friends, turn down all offers to do something fun and save my money for more doctor visits. Taking medications are not curing my health problems but they are letting me get by for one more day. I need to make a change with surgery because obviously I can't do it on my own.
Here I am today asking for help and hoping to be someone else's cheerleader along the way.
Thank you for giving me this opportunity to help change my life, to live a little longer and to enjoy this new child coming in June!
I had a Vertical Sleeve Gastroplasty (VSG) in 1994 at the starting weight of about 260 pounds. I eventually lost 130 pounds, felt fantastic and was in my early 40's. I rewarded myself with a new motorcycle, a new wardrobe and my son had me escort him during one of his high school events blushing at all the whistling from his friends. They watched me lose this weight and were my biggest cheerleaders.
So here I am 20 years later weighing more now that ever and I'm feeling miserable. What happened? I started dating and what comes with that is restaurant dinners. Did I get over confident and start eating little things knowing I could lose it? You can move food around on your plate to make it look like you are eating but one day people will notice so you start forcing yourself to eat more with trips to the restroom to expel that last bite. So I started practicing at home eating just a few extra bites. I did find that eating mashed potatoes with gravy was easy, Little Debbie's filled me up, and frosting out of a can, if eaten slowly, did not make me run to the restroom. Bottom line is, I learned how to cheat with the sleeve and it didn't hurt. Good thing I saved some of my larger jeans because very quickly I started wearing them.
At 280 pounds plus, depending on how much fluid I am retaining, I am MISERABLE. I have quit seeing my friends, turn down all offers to do something fun and save my money for more doctor visits. Taking medications are not curing my health problems but they are letting me get by for one more day. I need to make a change with surgery because obviously I can't do it on my own.
Here I am today asking for help and hoping to be someone else's cheerleader along the way.
Thank you for giving me this opportunity to help change my life, to live a little longer and to enjoy this new child coming in June!
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