@DuodenalSwitchaRoo This is so amazing! I am so happy for you! You are such an inspiration. It does not matter what has been thrown at you you just keep pushing through. Thank you for showing us what not giving up gets you.
It's been such a slow....S...L....O......W.. journey for me that it's been a while since I had a YAY moment....but that one was a biggie!
I don't know what it is....split personalities?? lol but there is something in me that just refuses to quit!!!! About a month ago I hit a low point questioning why I didn't take one of the 3 opportunities I had in hospital to die. My funk wasn't DS related but chronic pain related...sometimes it's hard to see a bright future when you can't move without breath-taking pain. Anyhow, I was lying in bed sobbing my heart out questioning why I was still here....and my ever so patient husband with his arms around me whispered....because there's a part of you that know's it's not going to be like this forever...and that part of you is stronger than the part that wants to give up.
Thats it in a nutshell. There is a part of me that is too damn stubborn to give up lol. And when I'm not crippled with pain I tend to have a Pollyanna-like perspective of the world. There is always something to be glad about
I'm still...STILL dealing with complications....hand is lame as ever....but I have learned to use it more yet rely on it less strength-wise, my thigh is still numb/burning most of the time...and that damn wound lol....that it almost healed though.....almost. Probably another 2 months though knowing my luck
But all those things started over 6 months ago and have sorta become my new "normal" so coping with these issues isn't as traumatic and soul destroying as they were in the beginning. I just sorta get on with it
And here is me and the hubster...ain't we just the sweetest thangs? lol
You guys are the sweetest thing. I'm so sorry you're still having so much pain. Hang in there, though - M. is right, there is part of you that KNOWS it's not forever. Keep fighting! Big hugs.