I have been scheduled for a while. My date is June 10, flying into San Diego on the 9th. I started my 10 day pre-op low carb high protein eating yesterday to be followed by the 5 day liquid, oh boy can you say fun!
My sister will fly down to San Diego from Concord and meet me. She is still very apprehensive but not to the point of causing problems. I know it's coming out of concern and love for me. Our conversation yesterday was her asking questions and me being able to answer every one of them. I think she felt better afterward. She brought up what a long surgery it is, long silent pause...I said yes, it is. (I have read different lengths of time, for my own knowledge, what is an average, without complications time for virgin DS?)3-3 1/2?
So, I am nervous, and trying to make preparations to be gone and for when I get back. I've ordered a few things. I've started a notebook with printouts of instructions from MBC and other information I think I'll need at some point.
A big problem is that I am scheduled to co-teach a vacation Bible school class running June 19-23 for a couple hours each evening (3rd and 4th graders). It's something I always do and back when they put me down for it again, this wasn't scheduled. I return home the 14th so it's not looking too good that I'll be up to doing that. I only teach two of the nights this year (we take turns doing two or three nights lesson year to year) and other nights would just be there helping. I would have to go up and down a set of stairs as classrooms are all in the basement of the church building. I did tell my co-teacher a while back what was going on with me because she's younger and I knew wouldn't freak out but no one else knows. But at that time I was probably unrealistically thinking I might be able to manage it. I have to figure it out. There just aren't many to take my place (not that I'm so hard to replace LOL but just lack of enough people to go around for the jobs and will DO it) as we're a smaller congregation. I also have decided to not tell hardly anyone what I'm doing so that makes it more difficult. I can say I'm going to meet my sister in San Diego, which will be true and explain my trip, but it's the "what's making me sick (or weak) part" after I get home that is tougher. If I say I had surgery they'll wonder what kind, what doctor, what hospital, etc. typical questions concerned friends would have and I don't wish to explain or justify myself to anyone just yet, especially the Mexico part! And I for sure don't want people looking at me to try to see if I'm losing weight yet! I know from others experience that there can be great variance as to how soon things happen and I'm ok with that but I don't want others wondering why. I know that I shouldn't be worried about these things and concentrate on what is right for ME, but we are all very close and open and I'm not used to having to keep things back nor do I usually even WANT to so as it doesn't feel natural nor good and I also don't want to "lie by ommission".
I'm sure I'm making more out of this than it needs to be, that's typical of me, but I am what I am. I'm nervous, anxious, excited, so many emotions and thought inside my mind. Thanks for all the support and friendship I find here. It really helps!
