Wait a minute - I just read your comment that it hurts so bad you have to stay at home. I'm an introvert/hermit by nature, so I'm definitely in favor of staying at home (though frankly, I rarely get that opportunity), but....Houston, we have a problem. Your medical team needs to do something to make sure your pain is well-managed and the root cause is being appropriately treated. Please don't be shy about communicating pain issues - make sure they know how bad you are feeling. Worried about you, amazing lady. You have suffered too much lately. While I want to have someone as role model for strength during adversity, you've already achieved that and then some! Hang in there.