Megange1
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- Mar 10, 2017
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This is all such good advice, and I realize I do need a different support system. It's really hard right now because every year we come up to my cabin for a girls week and this year it's just us two. I'm only 4 weeks preop and I'm still really struggling, but I feel I can't say anything to her about it without a response like, "ya well it might hurt now, but you chose it." Or "You'll be skinny soon enough, so what does this part matter if you're sick." She's even judging what I'm eating. She said last night, "what kind of diet is setting you up for success if all you eat is protein. I haven't seen you make any good choices and eat vegetables." I tried to explain how it works and she said she thinks it's just teaching me to be anorexic. I'd defend myself more, but we are literally stuck alone in the woods in the cabin. The other worst part, is that I've reached the emo stage and I can't stop crying for no reasons. Plus, I can't keep up with her. I need naps and I can't drink wine or go to our favorite restaurants. All I want to do is sleep. I just feel like I'm letting her down and I'm feeling depressed and doubting my decision