Hi [USER=1459]Clematis[/USER] and welcome back!
First, you are the same person, deserving of respect and positive treatment, regardless of size! Sounds to me like you are judging yourself harshly and then self-sabotaging, which is where some counseling might be helpful. These are stressful times. Be nice to you!
Sorry you are experiencing this. Also, please make sure your DS dietary needs are being met (protein, fat, vitamins), because you really can't be certain how much you are or are not absorbing.
