Clematis
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It’s been a while since I posted. I had DS exactly 5 years ago, lost all my weight in less than a year, high cholesterol and elevated glucose vanished. I had a lower body lift 18 months out. I have no words to describe the miracle of DS. I have been absolutely overjoyed with the happiest years of my life.
Nearly a year ago, though, my weight slowly begun to rise. without a change in my eating habits. Nothing too dramatic at first: 5 pounds. I wasn’t too worried. Then in the early part of this year I was startled when one day my floating soft serve ice cream kinda poop was firmly-formed and sunk in the toilet. At first that was only once a week or two, then several times a week and now mostly all the time. My weight rapidly rose and I am now more than 25 pounds over where I was and where I’d like to be. BMI is 25 bordering on 26. (I’ve shrunk an inch with age which I refuse to acknowledge or my BMI would be even higher.) I still appear to be gaining 2-3 pounds a month. I have a closet full of new clothes in size 4 or XS, most of which I can now no longer wear. I bought a new coat last week and had to get L for it to zip around my hips. I was so embarrassed, when I got home I cut the size label out at the neck for fear someone would see it.
I usually have blood work done in May and November. Because of Covid I skipped May and just got my November results: cholesterol is up to 219 from 167. (I am unable to take statins as I am one of those who developed dementia, liver damage and every other bad side effect from them.)
Sinking firm poop and rising cholesterol tell me I have hypertrophy of the bowel: my intestines have adapted to absorb fats again.
Yeah, I certainly had heard about this phenomenon but of course I never thought it would happen to ME.
People who have known me from my fat days say nothing but I see them surreptitiously glance at my hips and thighs and quickly look away. People I have met since the DS who believe I have always been not just thin, but lanky skinny have made jokes about "Covid weight". I am so deeply ashamed.
My only remedy at this point is strict dieting and even that won’t help my cholesterol much. Hey, if I was any good at dieting I wouldn't have needed a DS. I wake with dieting determination but that evaporates by lunchtime. I am very active and hike 8-12 miles a day. Yes, every morning. There’s not much more I can do on the exercise front besides push myself from the table, not one of my better skills.
I am utterly terrified I will revert to the marginalized fat person I was. Tears fill my eyes and my heart races with anxiety when I think of it.
The DS is such an incredible gift but for me it will not last forever.
Well, damn, but this is a depressing post.
Sorry.
Nearly a year ago, though, my weight slowly begun to rise. without a change in my eating habits. Nothing too dramatic at first: 5 pounds. I wasn’t too worried. Then in the early part of this year I was startled when one day my floating soft serve ice cream kinda poop was firmly-formed and sunk in the toilet. At first that was only once a week or two, then several times a week and now mostly all the time. My weight rapidly rose and I am now more than 25 pounds over where I was and where I’d like to be. BMI is 25 bordering on 26. (I’ve shrunk an inch with age which I refuse to acknowledge or my BMI would be even higher.) I still appear to be gaining 2-3 pounds a month. I have a closet full of new clothes in size 4 or XS, most of which I can now no longer wear. I bought a new coat last week and had to get L for it to zip around my hips. I was so embarrassed, when I got home I cut the size label out at the neck for fear someone would see it.
I usually have blood work done in May and November. Because of Covid I skipped May and just got my November results: cholesterol is up to 219 from 167. (I am unable to take statins as I am one of those who developed dementia, liver damage and every other bad side effect from them.)
Sinking firm poop and rising cholesterol tell me I have hypertrophy of the bowel: my intestines have adapted to absorb fats again.
Yeah, I certainly had heard about this phenomenon but of course I never thought it would happen to ME.
People who have known me from my fat days say nothing but I see them surreptitiously glance at my hips and thighs and quickly look away. People I have met since the DS who believe I have always been not just thin, but lanky skinny have made jokes about "Covid weight". I am so deeply ashamed.
My only remedy at this point is strict dieting and even that won’t help my cholesterol much. Hey, if I was any good at dieting I wouldn't have needed a DS. I wake with dieting determination but that evaporates by lunchtime. I am very active and hike 8-12 miles a day. Yes, every morning. There’s not much more I can do on the exercise front besides push myself from the table, not one of my better skills.
I am utterly terrified I will revert to the marginalized fat person I was. Tears fill my eyes and my heart races with anxiety when I think of it.
The DS is such an incredible gift but for me it will not last forever.
Well, damn, but this is a depressing post.
Sorry.