kirmy
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Many of you know me. You know about my evil mother and her special narcissist ways. She's always been neglectful and abusive. She has always lied, manipulated, Pitts her children against each other and ripped off vulnerable members of society. She's an evil shit stain of a person. She also bought me into the world. She likely hastened my fathers death through deliberate manipulation of his diet and medication. Can you say Munchausen by proxy? Yeh she hurt me growing up for attention too! How the fuck I survived that festering vagina of a person I do not know but I did! Fuck her!
So since Dad died Shit stain has been soft and caring and vulnerable. She's been broken and weak and elderly. I felt bad for her. I then got Cancer and she got pissed off that it upstaged my sister. She wasn't interested in the type of Breast cancer I've got, my survival odds and the God awful treatment I have ahead of me. But...I'm still a soft shite of a person and more than anything I want my mother to love me. I wanted her to care...she doesn't. She decided to visit. But she's not coming until the weather is nicer and then she's going to tour about so really...she's wanting to use my house as a crash pad while she has the grand tour. She isn't bothered if I'm too sick to interact or in hospital. She change the subject back to her........again.....
So today she sent me a cracker of an email. It is a conspiracy piece about how chemotherapy makes you die slowly and in great pain. I'm half way through chemo. Apparently the "scientists" note that no matter what chemo I have it will kill me violently and with great suffering. Hey ho...too bad to me. I flipped out. My vulnerable little girl centre wated my Mum to care but instead she spammed me with a nee neeeerr you're gonna die post. I told her I was revolted by her email and how could any mother send this to her daughter going through Cancer treatment etc.
Her reply...cut and past because it's so full retard I can't even:
I DID NOT SEND IT TO UPSET YOU I THOUGHT WITH YOUR OPEN MIND YOU
WOULD SEE IT FOR WHAT IT IS. NO DRAMA KIRSTIN. Modern medicine has come a long way
These days and many changes are taking place. THE POWER OF THE MIND IS THE GREATEST TOOL
YOU CAN HAVE!!!. Sadly some people are so wrapped up in themselves they cannot see the
Bush for the trees. ( me I'm assuming because you know...I'm a cunt)
You can be an utter bitch at times in the way you talk to me and treat me over the years. Your Dad
Was not always impressed in your treatment towards us especially how we were treated when we came to visit ( My Dad loved me and was ashamed of Mum's behaviour when she visited. Too much drama to go into detail about but yeh....wow she went there)......
You, he vowed and declared he would not return as he WA very hurt at the time. So was I.
I have been deeply hurt by your treatment towards me and lack of communication. You were selfish and spoilt.
Georgina has suffered and gone through an awful lot and now has another lump on her para-thyroid
But she is not a drama queen.
I AM VERY PLEASED TO SEE THAT YOU ARE GETTING ON TOP OF YOUR PROBLEM.
You are not the only one that suffers so don't be such a bloody drama queen.
God bless you will put you in my prayers
Your loving mother.
So why am I allowing her to still hurt me?
I'm just so annoyed at myself and so frustrated at her. There were more exchanges but gah.....this is the crux of it.
So since Dad died Shit stain has been soft and caring and vulnerable. She's been broken and weak and elderly. I felt bad for her. I then got Cancer and she got pissed off that it upstaged my sister. She wasn't interested in the type of Breast cancer I've got, my survival odds and the God awful treatment I have ahead of me. But...I'm still a soft shite of a person and more than anything I want my mother to love me. I wanted her to care...she doesn't. She decided to visit. But she's not coming until the weather is nicer and then she's going to tour about so really...she's wanting to use my house as a crash pad while she has the grand tour. She isn't bothered if I'm too sick to interact or in hospital. She change the subject back to her........again.....
So today she sent me a cracker of an email. It is a conspiracy piece about how chemotherapy makes you die slowly and in great pain. I'm half way through chemo. Apparently the "scientists" note that no matter what chemo I have it will kill me violently and with great suffering. Hey ho...too bad to me. I flipped out. My vulnerable little girl centre wated my Mum to care but instead she spammed me with a nee neeeerr you're gonna die post. I told her I was revolted by her email and how could any mother send this to her daughter going through Cancer treatment etc.
Her reply...cut and past because it's so full retard I can't even:
I DID NOT SEND IT TO UPSET YOU I THOUGHT WITH YOUR OPEN MIND YOU
WOULD SEE IT FOR WHAT IT IS. NO DRAMA KIRSTIN. Modern medicine has come a long way
These days and many changes are taking place. THE POWER OF THE MIND IS THE GREATEST TOOL
YOU CAN HAVE!!!. Sadly some people are so wrapped up in themselves they cannot see the
Bush for the trees. ( me I'm assuming because you know...I'm a cunt)
You can be an utter bitch at times in the way you talk to me and treat me over the years. Your Dad
Was not always impressed in your treatment towards us especially how we were treated when we came to visit ( My Dad loved me and was ashamed of Mum's behaviour when she visited. Too much drama to go into detail about but yeh....wow she went there)......
You, he vowed and declared he would not return as he WA very hurt at the time. So was I.
I have been deeply hurt by your treatment towards me and lack of communication. You were selfish and spoilt.
Georgina has suffered and gone through an awful lot and now has another lump on her para-thyroid
But she is not a drama queen.
I AM VERY PLEASED TO SEE THAT YOU ARE GETTING ON TOP OF YOUR PROBLEM.
You are not the only one that suffers so don't be such a bloody drama queen.
God bless you will put you in my prayers
Your loving mother.
So why am I allowing her to still hurt me?
I'm just so annoyed at myself and so frustrated at her. There were more exchanges but gah.....this is the crux of it.