kirmy
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It's been five years tomorrow since my 11.5hr marathon operation happened. I have changed beyond recognition on every front. I am still however at core me. I have grieved, moved on, dwelled when I shouldn't, revisited old pain and earned some new ones. I've also kicked arses and taken names. I have developed a massive ego then got rid of it. Became aware of my enormous self importance then kicked myself in the cooter for such arrogance and ignorance. I've been hormonal, asexual, mature, immature, wise, stupid etc etc.
I know that my future happiness revolves around managing the DS appropriately. The transformation however is staggering.
I made a list because I wanted to remind myself how transforming this surgery is:
1. I will live without a physical disability
2. No one knows I was ever fat
3. No one yells abuse at me out of cars or follows me around shopping centres making comments about my food
4. Shop assistant don't act like Godzilla is marauding though the shop and heading for skinny girl clothes
5. the adjective that strangers use to describe me upon first glance is slim...followed by bat shit crazy
6. I have created a very lucrative career in a male dominated industry and make my way on my own terms. I'm fierce ROOOOAAARRRR
7. I think I'm pretty much ok
8. I tell life sucking soul vampires to kiss my naked mole rat
9. I am supple, fit and agile although I still break shit because I'm still an idiot
10. I dance like no one is looking but of course they are looking because who is that idiot dancing?
11. My lowest weight was ( I think from memory) a tiny and fragile 136lbs or 9.8 stones or 62.5kgs. I looked terminal admittedly. Damn that was small!. My settled weight turned out to be around 147lbs or 67kgs. I have since gained up to 70-72kgs depending on the poo.
12. Despite a small regain I feel in control of my life
13. I have lost my Father and am grieving yet it doesn't seem like life is overwhelming or I'm defeated. Before it would be just another nail in the coffin.
14. I love and get love. I think that is right.
15. Calcium still continues to be a battle for me. My PTH goes up and down like a yo yo and I get disheartened. I keep persisting and trying to beat this one.
So now photo porn.
I'm so proud of my Surgery choice. I will endeavour to make my health a priority not an after thought.
Happy New Year to all.
Kirstin aka Kirmy
I know that my future happiness revolves around managing the DS appropriately. The transformation however is staggering.
I made a list because I wanted to remind myself how transforming this surgery is:
1. I will live without a physical disability
2. No one knows I was ever fat
3. No one yells abuse at me out of cars or follows me around shopping centres making comments about my food
4. Shop assistant don't act like Godzilla is marauding though the shop and heading for skinny girl clothes
5. the adjective that strangers use to describe me upon first glance is slim...followed by bat shit crazy
6. I have created a very lucrative career in a male dominated industry and make my way on my own terms. I'm fierce ROOOOAAARRRR
7. I think I'm pretty much ok
8. I tell life sucking soul vampires to kiss my naked mole rat
9. I am supple, fit and agile although I still break shit because I'm still an idiot
10. I dance like no one is looking but of course they are looking because who is that idiot dancing?
11. My lowest weight was ( I think from memory) a tiny and fragile 136lbs or 9.8 stones or 62.5kgs. I looked terminal admittedly. Damn that was small!. My settled weight turned out to be around 147lbs or 67kgs. I have since gained up to 70-72kgs depending on the poo.
12. Despite a small regain I feel in control of my life
13. I have lost my Father and am grieving yet it doesn't seem like life is overwhelming or I'm defeated. Before it would be just another nail in the coffin.
14. I love and get love. I think that is right.
15. Calcium still continues to be a battle for me. My PTH goes up and down like a yo yo and I get disheartened. I keep persisting and trying to beat this one.
So now photo porn.
I'm so proud of my Surgery choice. I will endeavour to make my health a priority not an after thought.
Happy New Year to all.
Kirstin aka Kirmy