Razbry
Well-Known Member
The very first thing I want to say is that there is a very nice article on this forum about clean eating. I understand and agree with the authors thoughts. I mean no disrespect to her.
All my fat life I have felt shame for anything I have ever put into my mouth. After all, it was apparent that anything was too much...right? As the only fat child of my family, I was an embarrassment to them. Everyone (at one time or another) became my keeper of what was appropriate for me to eat. It could be as simple as, are you sure you really want that? to, lets go on a grapefruit and water diet. I never felt good enough...ever. Food was at the center of it all. I liked food, I hated food. Food was the alpha and omega. If I could just conquer food my life would be right. I started to get educated on what was good food versus bad food. Go to jail and feel shame if you eat bad foods. This newer term, clean foods, indicated (to me) that there must be a bad opposite called dirty food. All of us here know what bad/dirty food is, and all of us now embrace (or are in varying stages of embracing) that bad/dirty food is what is now good for us. People still observe what I eat off my plate with disapproval. Although lately I take delight when they raise one eyebrow and say, oh you must be a Palieo. Yeah, something like that. The point is (for me) is that I don't give a damn anymore what anyone thinks about my diet. I am healthy in both body and mind through dirty eating. June Cleaver no longer has a place in my kitchen.
All my fat life I have felt shame for anything I have ever put into my mouth. After all, it was apparent that anything was too much...right? As the only fat child of my family, I was an embarrassment to them. Everyone (at one time or another) became my keeper of what was appropriate for me to eat. It could be as simple as, are you sure you really want that? to, lets go on a grapefruit and water diet. I never felt good enough...ever. Food was at the center of it all. I liked food, I hated food. Food was the alpha and omega. If I could just conquer food my life would be right. I started to get educated on what was good food versus bad food. Go to jail and feel shame if you eat bad foods. This newer term, clean foods, indicated (to me) that there must be a bad opposite called dirty food. All of us here know what bad/dirty food is, and all of us now embrace (or are in varying stages of embracing) that bad/dirty food is what is now good for us. People still observe what I eat off my plate with disapproval. Although lately I take delight when they raise one eyebrow and say, oh you must be a Palieo. Yeah, something like that. The point is (for me) is that I don't give a damn anymore what anyone thinks about my diet. I am healthy in both body and mind through dirty eating. June Cleaver no longer has a place in my kitchen.
