MsVee
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I apologize this is so long but I need to share. I don’t post often although I read this board regularly and have since it was started. I just want to share where I am and how I got here.
I have never reached my goal weight even after 2 weight loss surgeries and have struggled with feelings of failure. I blame myself because I researched weight loss surgery and had the RNY in 2005. I knew about the BPD-DS and knew it was the surgery best suited for me.
A doctor I trusted suggested that the weight loss difference between the RNY and DS would be less than 20 lbs so there was no need for the “extreme risk” for the DS. This doctor was not a Bariatric surgeon and I believe he was simply ill informed about the difference in the surgeries. I had done my research but I allowed myself to be swayed.
I believed I messed up. And as the weight started creeping back on after the RNY I felt hopeless. I had already attempted several weight loss options. Weight watchers, Jenny Craig, a medically supervised fast, and pretty much every diet plan. I always lost weight. My problem was I always gained it back plus 10 to 15 lbs more.
I returned to various weight loss boards because I knew with my altered anatomy I needed information geared towards my new nutritional needs. On the WLS boards I learned that there were surgeons revising RNYs to DS. I started researching this surgery contacted my insurance and started over.
I was cautiously optimistic that converting my RNY to a DS would work. After my failure with the RNY it was hard for me to “believe“ this would work. I simply knew I had to do something and this seemed like the best option. I hope contacted one of the few surgeons doing the RNY conversions to DS. I made all the appointments. Completed all the testing I went in for my final appointment to sign papers and the doctor said he changed his mind about my surgery. He informed me he would do an ERNY and not he DS we had discussed. When I expressed my disappointment he said “ there are only a few doctors who do this surgery. What are you going to do fly to California to see Ara?
I posted on the WLS board how upset I was and Diana Cox and several others responded. I actually contacted Dr K and had the DS in April of 2012. I have lost 200 lbs from my highest weight but I am still obese. I know that my health is much improved but I still need to lose 60 lbs.
I sometimes beat myself up because I wonder if I had stuck to my guns and had the surgery I knew was best for me would I have lost more weight? I know I can’t go back in time so I have to accept where I am now.
I don’t post often because I feel like such a failure. I don’t feel entitled to give advice yet I know I have learned so much from living with the RNY and the DS.
Life is too short to live in regret. I am tired of just being an observer. I love this board for all the support and knowledge you provide. My goal for 2020 is to be more prese
I have never reached my goal weight even after 2 weight loss surgeries and have struggled with feelings of failure. I blame myself because I researched weight loss surgery and had the RNY in 2005. I knew about the BPD-DS and knew it was the surgery best suited for me.
A doctor I trusted suggested that the weight loss difference between the RNY and DS would be less than 20 lbs so there was no need for the “extreme risk” for the DS. This doctor was not a Bariatric surgeon and I believe he was simply ill informed about the difference in the surgeries. I had done my research but I allowed myself to be swayed.
I believed I messed up. And as the weight started creeping back on after the RNY I felt hopeless. I had already attempted several weight loss options. Weight watchers, Jenny Craig, a medically supervised fast, and pretty much every diet plan. I always lost weight. My problem was I always gained it back plus 10 to 15 lbs more.
I returned to various weight loss boards because I knew with my altered anatomy I needed information geared towards my new nutritional needs. On the WLS boards I learned that there were surgeons revising RNYs to DS. I started researching this surgery contacted my insurance and started over.
I was cautiously optimistic that converting my RNY to a DS would work. After my failure with the RNY it was hard for me to “believe“ this would work. I simply knew I had to do something and this seemed like the best option. I hope contacted one of the few surgeons doing the RNY conversions to DS. I made all the appointments. Completed all the testing I went in for my final appointment to sign papers and the doctor said he changed his mind about my surgery. He informed me he would do an ERNY and not he DS we had discussed. When I expressed my disappointment he said “ there are only a few doctors who do this surgery. What are you going to do fly to California to see Ara?
I posted on the WLS board how upset I was and Diana Cox and several others responded. I actually contacted Dr K and had the DS in April of 2012. I have lost 200 lbs from my highest weight but I am still obese. I know that my health is much improved but I still need to lose 60 lbs.
I sometimes beat myself up because I wonder if I had stuck to my guns and had the surgery I knew was best for me would I have lost more weight? I know I can’t go back in time so I have to accept where I am now.
I don’t post often because I feel like such a failure. I don’t feel entitled to give advice yet I know I have learned so much from living with the RNY and the DS.
Life is too short to live in regret. I am tired of just being an observer. I love this board for all the support and knowledge you provide. My goal for 2020 is to be more prese
Past procedures and doctors may have failed you, but you are a determined, smart, beautiful person who has gone above and beyond to fight for her health. 
