Well, the liquid diet sucks every but as much as I had been lead to believe. Didn't do too bad the first day, but the last couple have totally kicked my butt. I'm up right now because I woke up hungry and was unable to get back to sleep. I've had three bites or so of greek yogurt and the stomach is saying 'no more'. So I'm working on getting some water down in hopes that will help the nausea.
It seemed like the Surgery would never come, and now that I'm here on the precipice before stepping off (sorry, watched Spider Man last night so that's the metaphor that comes to mind) it feels like it has all happened so fast. I'm scared (freaking terrified actually) about not knowing what's on the other side of the door, but there's nothing to do now but press forward. You can watch all the videos and read all the forum posts, and common threads emerge, but the upshot is everyone's journey is unique.
My wife is feeling some fear too, I'm not sure how much of it is my cowardice making me give off scared and stressed vibes and affecting her and how much is normal. We grew up together really, married at 21, been together 27 years. So it's got to be scary for her. I wish I was a stronger support for her. She told me last night she thought I was brave. I don't feel brave in the slightest.
Anyhow, whimpering aside, I'm fairly ready. I need to pack today and also would like to clean up my side of the bedroom since picking stuff up off the floor isn't going to be in the cards for a while. I have a small shopping list today (a 120v to USB adapter, gas x strips) but mostly I have everything I need.