Hi guys, I haven't been here in a while. I've been busy working, healing etc. I was diagnosed with major depression, re-diagnosed with PTSD and got a confirmed diagnosis for OCD a while back. I've been attending therapy and working on getting better. Last year was among the worst yet, in my life. I won't get into the gory details. The depression etc. is why I've been away. It's also why I have set aside the DS and postponed until I am ready for it, mentally. Some of you guys who were familiar with my posts on Proboards may remember that I had done my research and planned everything to the T. It was painful and disappointing, in the sense that I felt guilty for not going through it because life got in the way. I felt like I should've trucked on, but it would've been a poor idea. A major life changing surgery and untreated depression etc. are not exactly the best combination there is. Psych evaluation would have been held me back anyway over a depression and PTSD diagnosis. Some days are harder than others, but I've been making progress, slow and steady. I just wanted to let the DS/wls family know where I've been and what I've been up to. I hope you guys are doing wonderfully. I wish the newbies the very best with DS recovery and prep, whatever stage you're on. Given the upheaval of last year, I have reconsidered the DS and have been considering the VSG lately. I haven't decided against the DS, but as a lightweight, if VSG can get my aims met, then I would like to give it due consideration. My main reasons behind getting the DS were pre-D resolution. I've been thinking about the rigorous DS regimen, and I did feel up to it. I am thorough and organized enough, have been on my own for years, have shouldered adult responsibilities from a young age. It may just be the depression making me feel incompetent about handling the DS life. It does affect our self-perception a great deal. For that reason and some financial difficulties I had last year, I've recently thought of the VSG and perhaps the duodenal jejunal-bypass that Baltasar had suggested. This is the surgery that's being performed to reverse diabetes in average weight adults, in Europe. I think that and the VSG or the VSG alone are back in consideration, besides the DS. Excuse me if I sound garbled and disorganized about the different surgeries right now. I am just a bit tired right now, and I have been prioritizing mental health improvements lately, so I am a bit rusty. All of this is partially why I don't want to decide on DS vs VSG right now. It's not the best time to make or reverse decisions. It feels a bit shameful to me that I seem indecisive and almost feel like I am back to square one. But, I guess it's not that bad because I have done considerable research. When my mind isn't as foggy, things will make more sense. I am taking it easy for now. Apologies in advance if I bother you guys again with some brainstorming regarding DS and VSG, in the future, as well as my personal thoughts, and request some feedback. I won't do it until I am doing better, however. Please know that I never have and never would take even a moment of your time for granted. I appreciate it all. Thanks for reading. Oh, a quick shout out to my angel Shellie: Hope you're well Shellie. Sorry, I haven't been in touch. Hope to catch up with you soon.