jjordan8130
Well-Known Member
Just wanted to share my recovery journey from the last couple weeks. As many of you know I got to go home early and have had a picture perfect recovery (so far). At the end of week 1 I hit a wall. I cried for three days straight wondering what I'd done to myself and truly doubting my choice. I just knew I'd made a mistake.
Today I'd say I made a great decision and I don't regret it for a single second! I've still had days of crying here and there, but I've lost the only coping mechanism I've used since I was in first grade (the year I was considered "fat"). Food as my comfort is all I've ever known. Honestly, that's been the hardest part of my recovery. I also felt hopeless for awhile and wondered if I'd ever feel "normal" again. Basically I was tired of feeling like my insides had been roto-rootered. I had a "friend" who'd had DS tell me I'd never feel normal again and I'd just have to deal with it. THAT WAS A LIE!!!! Tomorrow is 2 weeks and I do feel normal again. The only reminders I have of surgery now are my healing incision sites and the fact that I'm eating very soft food VERY VERY SLOWLY. That's it. RUMOR DISPELLED! It gets better and you will eventually feel normal again one day!
I'm getting my fluids in just fine. I do struggle daily with protein and vits. Protein shakes make me want to throw up, so I've honestly not had any. I'm advancing my diet at my own pace and within acceptable parameters of most surgeons. Today I had tuna for lunch.
My goal is to work up to getting my protein in through real food and not shakes. (I know this is a personal choice for each of us) Vits are just so so. Some days are better than others. Yesterday I didn't get them all in, but the day before I did. I'm working on my normal routine.
I return to work on Friday and I'm SO ready! So far I've lost 20 pounds although that part isn't super important to me right now. My focus has just been on feeling better again.
I'd like to say thank you to @k9ophile for being such an amazing support and dear friend through this process. You've encouraged me when I've been down and been a listening ear through all of my whining. I'm SO thankful to have you in my life!
Today I'd say I made a great decision and I don't regret it for a single second! I've still had days of crying here and there, but I've lost the only coping mechanism I've used since I was in first grade (the year I was considered "fat"). Food as my comfort is all I've ever known. Honestly, that's been the hardest part of my recovery. I also felt hopeless for awhile and wondered if I'd ever feel "normal" again. Basically I was tired of feeling like my insides had been roto-rootered. I had a "friend" who'd had DS tell me I'd never feel normal again and I'd just have to deal with it. THAT WAS A LIE!!!! Tomorrow is 2 weeks and I do feel normal again. The only reminders I have of surgery now are my healing incision sites and the fact that I'm eating very soft food VERY VERY SLOWLY. That's it. RUMOR DISPELLED! It gets better and you will eventually feel normal again one day!
I'm getting my fluids in just fine. I do struggle daily with protein and vits. Protein shakes make me want to throw up, so I've honestly not had any. I'm advancing my diet at my own pace and within acceptable parameters of most surgeons. Today I had tuna for lunch.
My goal is to work up to getting my protein in through real food and not shakes. (I know this is a personal choice for each of us) Vits are just so so. Some days are better than others. Yesterday I didn't get them all in, but the day before I did. I'm working on my normal routine. I return to work on Friday and I'm SO ready! So far I've lost 20 pounds although that part isn't super important to me right now. My focus has just been on feeling better again.
I'd like to say thank you to @k9ophile for being such an amazing support and dear friend through this process. You've encouraged me when I've been down and been a listening ear through all of my whining. I'm SO thankful to have you in my life!
